quantum entanglement states that, upon creation, two or more particles may be inextricably tied to each other, whereby information or experiences are shared instantaneously. all things being comprised of particles by definition and by repetition, all things comprise all of us. thus i find myself inextricably entangled with others upon creation, as if my soul shudders vibrationally in tune with twin sisters and brothers like atoms in heat given degrees by love love is objective, physical, transcendental and absolute it is the compass of intuition that tunes us in to the truth within and without like a magnet drawn to our counterpart inextricably tied, entangled, love is a part of our truth we just see it with different eyes because of this aspect of love we understand it as our only extra-dimensional connection our single thread, the arm and hand to our fingertip souls it swirls like myst through the fabric of reality, inside black holes in dark matter and they fraying stitches of the seams of space time a river of continuity for the universe binding our body to soul joining the experience of one with the other within and without if gravity can bend spacetime and make father and child the same age what can it do to love and what can love do to it? if motion can send me around the world one thousand times in less than a second while hundreds of years pass for the stationary what can it do to love and what can love do to it? and in light of all of this, when you say i love you, do you know what the fuck you mean? i have seen my consciousness cross the genetic line of our evolutionary ancestry i have seen the common thread of all of life, felt myself warped through it, learned the body of another species, and looked into the naked space from an icy prison billions of years in the future i have been drawn and quartered at the center of a lifesize, timesized, spacesized sand mosaic - strung up at it's center while the years before me watched as my separation necessitated the separation of all things i have seen the world end and i have met the man behind the curtain i have looked into another's eyes and felt her history the history of every action that made her and felt my soul, my spirit, swell from within my heart reach forward toward her breast and clasp fingers with hers like a protective ribcage around our shared whole- entangled since before we returned to physical bodies in the space between lives i have felt this many times and i have felt the fear of the feeling without knowing, and i have seen my love, my twin, my beating heart flee from me as a logical response to my existence these things are glimpses of our true nature - that stretch and twist our neural landscape and leave pressure cracks across our worldview it's a matinee viewing - it's walking in on the bride before the wedding the beauty and the curse of the human mind experiencing the god within i have seized and hallucinated and nearly died and i have risen out of my body, my place, my time and the universe has taught me my true nature across the edge of a frontier so daring, so incredibly foreign that even my pure, unshackled imagination had to escape it. these are things i can not prove but that i know like i know how to breathe they are objectively, emperically true i don't know why they happened to me but i know that there is a thread running through every shred of experience laced with a message - a key to unlock what it means to be human and what it means to know god in some negative space relief like a map of instructions for a block of granite a hammer and chisel - i just need to get the picture because the lie is in the details the lie is in the assumption that all this made up bullshit is more real than what's real, and there's so much of it that nobody has any room to wonder about the truth - that extrasensory experience is far more vast than sensory that reality is not readily available or easy for us - so therefore our presumptious demeanor and determination to push ahead with our own agenda is akin to playing sorry on a shoots and ladders board in that nobody wins, its not any fun, and eventually it falls apart we are who crossed the plains of africa under an ancient sun that leathered our hands and the skin on our drums that gave rhythm to tales of the daughters and suns of 26,500 years ago - of pyramids and the equinox of east and west that meet and rest over our first handshake our first kiss we are who left footsteps across the moon who split the atom, who conquered nature who dominated the planet for as long as we've been here with bones, then spears, then swords, then bullets, then bombs who creates life and destroys it and then turns both into a business we eat at mcdonalds, we speak via text, we fuck plastic dolls and paint over our faces we buy shit at walmart, we're glued to our screens we're on all kinds of pills for our jobs for our things for our cancerous heart filled with all the wrong stuff for so long that its killing itself but when you shut the world out and you quiet your mind all internal and external stimuli recede and your soul resumes its rightful throne and your life resumes its true nature all over this planet i can feel the lives of my soulmates i can feel their joy and their pain, and the heat of the piece of our whole that they each possess vibrating in tune with my own as life washes through them and turns that shard to a diamond the ebb and flow of our alignment fluctuates, but just so its past religion, future science but more than that, it's me - fractured and separated in war with a manufactured substitute system of control i wont cling, or need, or hold these pieces but my soul reaches for them, screams alone for us to meet and see our own within the other please come home please come home please come home please come home

have you ever listened to the story we tell how we're victims and life is sort of like hell might as well not try, we try and we fail we hide inside these boxes, and lie to ourselves we lie about our problems so we don't have to fix em somebody call a doctor cause I need a prescription somebody call a therapist, I want him to listen to how I called this dude a terrorist because he was different we can't afford the price when we keep trying to sell it short you tell a story long enough you might have to settle for it metaphors are powerful, Words are incredible say what you mean it but then you better be ready for it no need for the wishes we always follow with doubts if you spit it out of your mouth, then just live it out the problem isn't conviction, it's what it's about it's the position our vision isn't when it's on the ground wear your chin like a crown in your mind say that - you're gonna die, you're killed say that - you're gonna try you fail, say that - I know that life's a steal say that, stand back, I'm gonna fly, for real say that I'm a live a life they write in books, I will say that I'm a living christ, I'm a crook, its real like my identity inside defines the look, the feel that's why I'm grinning when I write - because I stood, I kneel to every word about this story cause the shits amazing somebody write it for me, cause it's getting crazy the love I have surpasses any wish I've made, she made me understand the past as its a gift, it made me and I don't give a fuck about negative outcomes that's busy work, but whats here will never be out done.... the worry and the doubts what made it all go black... now I've forgotten why I got so mad... shit is not so bad in your mind

i feel like we should talk less i feel i'm a hot mess this thing with you does not rest this thing thats caught in our chest this pain this pleasure harnessed insane like i could not guess it feels like its a process i feel like you're a goddess the way you say you made it makes me feel okay with all this like things id never changed before id change if i was honest with broken homes it feels like youre alone despite them calling but now i know you know i know we're home right now i promise the bright sun and blue water we fight less and love harder you tell me that i'm the one i tell you its just for fun we walk the beach at midnight watch the stars and clear skies we both say i love you but its alright long days late nights so far so fine i swear you're right cool out moonlight well i dont believe it i know we're speaking we're overreaching and so completely like, no with people they don't release it that hope that we can find home, the reason i wont excede where this goes is we can fly, so just keep your eyes closed, your fingers lie close to me and mine don't, just breathe the right notes, while she and i grow, i see the signs, chosen people fly home in eaches eyes, a peaceful night flow, uneven tides, what me and mine know is we are tied... i see your light glow when we collide i feel like i know i need you right i feel like you know it, please can i please can i hold you please can i mean what i told you she replies... the bright sun and blue water we fight less and love harder you tell me that i'm the one i tell you its just for fun we walk the beach at midnight watch the stars and clear skies we both say i love you but its alright long days late nights so far so fine i swear you're right cool out moonlight its this connection this connection got me spun like which direction now is possible to step in except the one with your reflection that purity, and your perfect teeth and i'm sure of things that i'd question it doesn't worry me for a second its like well its like ive known you all my life before it and more than that cause you're right the rest is so foreign now when you try to translate it for me, but you don't even have to say it cause i know it in my veins but i would still listen here for days to hear you speak poetry and pain insane, cause i know that we're the same and i know it like my name what hope could ever claim that we can find home at all this way and its only the beginning come days of service days of spinning earth and worship days admitting that i am home with you i'm not crazy

I can't help this crooked smile that escapes me with you there in the rain on the pavement - arms outstretched like picture-perfect mankind, exhaling atmosphere in a sigh whispered, "thank you." Splash notes across palms lifted up - hands high; a watching hundred eyes want to hide, want to stand by - want to understand why you ran out into the rain but I know why... she is a fitting image for the rhythm of the rain drops. Watching her existence ties my insides to the same knot- everything forgetting everything to give a spot light to the girl who saw the world and smiled, said "its alright." Said its mine to make - mine to change and mine to keep. Open handed-palms forward-catching bullets-out reached : a light touch for a world of blunt force trauma- silence fills the noise, stills the void, a shadow of peace across my vision as I watch from across an ocean, where i'm sitting here. I feel her heart beat race with goosebumps raised, hair standing on ends up- energy colliding with the space beside her rinsed cuts stitching patterns on her skin, knees and elbows - feet and hands, together, with her mind and spirit call back to this demand from life that somebody become a proper man, a proper answer to this gift that we were given from the sand, and she's a cancer. She came here to teach and try to save us from our sins. I'm cheering - blocking the view reflected off the moon for those thats near her; those who wonder how a woman finds herself so free - I know how, because she's me. I know how because I crawled out of the mud the same that she did. I know how because I've fallen into dust over my weaknesses. I know how because she was the ladder rungs I needed and I know how because we were climbing up each others features. Its something the earth deserves in words and actions, pardon, but I'm certain of it - worth is what is worth it, not your hardened separated view of all life. Its when I asked her for her hand and future plans, and she said, "Alright." We discovered something huge, something true, something new, something better, some connection, some exception to the rule some kind of blessing, kind of power, high as towers reach for me. Its not a matter of the crowds or passing hours, she is beautiful because she left her shelter for the rain, and I know her name.

for the light for the truth for the pain for the moon for the life for the love for the rain for the moon for your eyes for your heart for your hands for your pride for your thighs for your lust for your lips for the moon what amazing pain… what amazing pain… i can feel it pierce the static, like a drop of rain icing deep within a crack of granite - hardened change i can feel it shatter all expanding - heart and brain counting days and different ways to places on the way where she's holding half a soul for me so patiently acting out and asking loud if we should have to wait silent sounds thats underground that say she'll wait for me its difficult to say enough, explain that what i'm feeling ain't for words, what she deserves is something dangerous the physical - to touch her, make her blush to peal her out her clothes, to make it hurt under the flame and rush and i can tell her… how i want her from behind, i want my tongue between her thighs, how i will brace and fuck her crazy, how i'd say her name and smile when she say she came but miles keep that all away, and words just never make the cut so when you think of me so when you clench your teeth when you arch your back when you need release with your legs apart and your hands between a made a song for when you think of me when you feel alone when im out of reach when you need your home when you're doubting me when you need to hope when we're out of key i made this song for when you think of me i'm feeling strong an able, not abrasive but i'll save you after i have dominated all this distance just to thank you i feel it all at once, i'm caught across a new sensation all the pain and all the love in all of this and all that made you all my accomplishments will pale in the comparison with what your life demands of me and what i'll do to wear you in my future - what my hands can make - to move and understand and break the boundaries and past mistakes to see you laying bare and grin to not be there's a sin to not be where you are i think about you when i watch the moon compare the stars i feel the ground shift when i talk to you, and bare my heart so often that i'm out of shit to offer you, i swear its hard but at least we know at least we found this home that we were seeking in eachother…mean, at least, there's hope i can see us growing tougher as the seasons flow this is proper mate and proper lover what you need to know is… when you think of me...

I ain't really got a lot to say that will make it up you know, i gotta anyway for the record i say it for the record i ain't really got a lot to say that i'm making up you know, i gotta anyway for the record i say it for the record i bet you wanna drop it i bet there ain't a thing in the entire universe that i could say to try to stop it it ain't like i am optimistic about it - i'm not it's its just the only thing i've ever got that i can offer when you don't want to talk and its all so far away from me and i ain't gonna knock it but i just wanna explain something i would never try to justify causing you pain - what i'm talking bout is why i wanna die so if it came suddenly you know the truth thats why its for the record its spoken to the universe cause you taught me the methods what matters is i said it even if its not what you'd rather its so in the next life - maybe i can do better but i'm - i'm not gone make a promise except i promise that i'm not gone suicide and i am not gone be dishonest bout the fact i want a coffin pretty often lately i've been going crazy, so excuse me when i'm talking, but i'm talking cause i i ain't really got a lot to say that will make it up you know, i gotta anyway for the record i say it for the record i ain't really got a lot to say that i'm making up you know, i gotta anyway for the record i say it for the record the shit was going well i caught a piece of heaven then circled back to hell as if i couldn't learn a lesson i feel like my humanity is draining from the pressure i feel like adolf hitler and obama put together and i could say i'm different now but why would you believe in me every friend i've ever had's a step away from leaving me i'm good with stringing words together does it mean any thing, when i can't back it up - you're better off to keep running - its running off you know just give it time eventually you'll realize that i ain't worth a dime there's nothing in the sky or corners of the earth to color me the way the person you deserve would be disguised i say its your decision even though i know i made it now i vomit up these sentences and wonder why i say it - i say it for the record so somewhere down the road i can know, that you know all of this shit that i can't show here it goes - i ain't really got a lot to say that will make it up you know, i gotta anyway for the record i say it for the record i ain't really got a lot to say that i'm making up you know, i gotta anyway for the record i say it for the record

am i out to sea? it's all gotten so complicated like am i really out for me? have i lost my patience? every time i say shit it don't really sound complete but then i open my mouth to speak just to tell you my doubt, my weakness, and i pound your face in it, i just wanna make this, make this sound so sweet so loud, when i pound my feet but i scream cause you're out of reach - or i'm out of my place and its i don't wanna wait - i don't wanna lose - i dont wanna let you down, or let you doubt or let you be yourself for now… i dont wanna stay i dont wanna move i don't wanna know what to do and then i say that what i want is you its all gotten so contradicting like i dont wanna talk or listen cause im afraid and its been this way for days and days everything i thought was missing well its right as rain so what can i say im out of tune… everything feels so real everything breaks my heart everything seems to steal but everything here so hard everything feels like fuck… everything plays its part everything leaves its mark everything seems to kill but everything feels so large everything comes so far everything seals the deal everything makes me starve everything makes me heal everything makes a scar but everything saves me too everything saves me too everything saves me too everything saves me too everything saves me too...

i know you hold your heart gingerly i know the tendency to run when it insists on beating love become the enemy when love does what it does which pulls at us to find our inner demons trust a victim of them rushing out to kill a dream when they see their time has come one last attempt at getting me to wanna bite a gun one last attempt to make you think that nothing nice can come from a heartbeat so large we can hardly pretend we're in charge we can hardly explain the feeling it needs to change i need to reign it in or maybe kill it cause lets be realistic aiming for the stars is great but every time i take shot i always scrape the ceiling i know the feeling but i know i can't escape the truth and who you are to me i'm sorry but you can't excuse it i hate to do it, but the farther down we take it proof is so hard to fight it but in light of it i'm making moves and making music cause the fact is, love is action its impact is impossible to track or reach when its more of just a crash into something you dont ask for and you know you wanna laugh i wanna fast foward not gonna ask for anything, i'm glad for what i know i have this, passion exacting, true to what is lasting burning up the bad and its hard for me to bask in it but i know the fact is if only i can see you growing with this lonely light and hope that life could need you knowing i could keep you in my focus or my rearview knowing that i dont decide i wont decide to leave you when i can only i can reach you knowing that my fingers wanna close around and cling to every hope that i can keep you knowing that i need you i wont decide to squeeze or choke the breath that needs to breath, so i can breath so i release you i am become the man that i deserve to be fuck what you heard i'm pretty sure you've never heard of me im pretty sure i wasnt sure until i heard you speak about the hurt and how you're nervous now its certainly something with destiny and service and those perfect teeth to kill the rest of me is murder in the third degree but i've invested every word in what the words can mean and i stress them in the verb of living worthily this is easy like its natural like believe me, or don't because its practical to think you see an act it doesnt matter what you bring to me i'm here to grapple with and grow and see you be complete why do we think we need to know it all before its fine? we're on a road that pushes forward as it goes in time we think we chose it but we're born to it we dont decide i'll hold your hand or let it go but still i know its mine i know the signs…. if only i can see you growing with this lonely light and hope that life could need you knowing i could keep you in my focus or my rearview knowing that i dont decide i wont decide to leave you when i can only i can reach you knowing that my fingers wanna close around and cling to every hope that i can keep you knowing that i need you i wont decide to squeeze or choke the breath that needs to breath, so i can breath so i release you this is catch and release

i was stuck in the ground trying to cover my eyes trying to move all this light spent all night trying to remember your face like trying to get blood from a stone there's nothing to say and no one lie to i can't justify my existence my way of living as if the weight of my insistence is significant as if the things that i could say could make a difference my changes can't change your vision i can't escape this prison i've been given or given to myself to live in but a prisons what it isnt its a wave in a vast ocean thats the same but individual as it came across the surface of the earth in my position submits decisions of my design but through the eyes of this precision that lives inside a mental picture and i can see you but i can see through this and i can see i don't need to use excuses to do this my life's a kind of music and the mistakes are how it makes it something great the way it grates across your nerves and makes me nervous and insane but i deserve this i deserve what i create if i was perfect, who relates? i earn my name my royalty and kingship divine masculine and feminine intertwined, cause what i think is in searching for some kind of meaning i have found a kind of ground where i can sound out what you're singing with your doubt and fear you sink in i'm proud to see the links in the chain if no one else can see them cause i tell them reach in and find your fingers clasped to hands that you belong to my life is a love song because i want you on your merry way i watch as the bomb dust hung in the sky like a dim flock of endless prayers spend my days out chasing the wind trying to turn gold from your hair there's nothing to say the flux and decay everyone is famous everyone is capable of changing everything to feel okay which is true to why we came, which is why i never try to close my eyes i'd rather face it i'll be the one to claim this and call it by its name with the certainty of language i respect your measured pleasure and the depths of your pain its impressive in its range and lets me know my own strangeness is really just a silly little feeling we're all engaged with i'll never let you not remember how you set it straight with every breath, with every breath i'll be consistent in my own way to let you know i know things precisely when you dont, wait... i dont want to finish i dont want to end this but then again its not like i had tried from the beginning to control this kind of friendship happy to in this happy nonetheless its all okay its all okay with all the hope that brings the day the moment you walk away i'll say with a confidence you made and now it stays be on your merry way be on your merry way cause you're great dear moon i have let you down i have forgotten your light when you're not around i have forgotten why i loved you so but tonight i look up at the sky and i know why you remind me of the beauty in a lonely heart who finds its kindness and collects its parts you remind of the purity of a light summer rainfall that washes us clean from our shame when its painful you remind that i'm human and that i'm proud to be that i am like you makes my doubts seem weak i think i found my home because i saw it in you i saw the way the earth seems to know you too i can't tell you how badly i want to hold you soon but i know whats best, and sadly you should go - we're through you have shown me who i could be and also who i am and while those arent the same i need you here but i can't i can't allow myself to cause you anymore pain cause i know your name and i know my life has changed you have given me the proof that i could be what i believed and i can't tell you how i needed it, but i dont need to be the person who causes this hurt for you cause that hurts me i'd rather love you where you are … wherever you're free and when i can't see you i just know the moon is new new beginnings, possibilities, and hopes and truths i pray you find so many that you can't remember how this happened how it turned on us… how endless ended and if i cross your mind i hope its just my smile watching you across an ocean happy like a child i am lost without you know but i can find my feet on the strength of your existence i will fly to bring the greatest news i've ever heard that love is real love is real love is real love exists inside a woman who i kissed beneath a tree with our initials added up just like our hands and feet i took a picture of her holding up the sun dear moon, run away to the horizon fly - i'll tell everyone i see about you i will sing and write i'm afraid that's all i can do for you but that's okay i know you now, and that wont ever change.

quantum entanglement states that upon creation two or more particles may be inextricably tied and in the same way, when we open our eyes we often find ourselves in the bodies of others we see the ripple effects of our feelings we see the convergence and reconnection of a vast uniform law of nature rediscovering itself in twin sisters and brothers igniting across distance like atoms in heat given degrees by love each of us contains all of us but some contain more and one contains a secret door through which you might discover the world you knew before you were born its beautiful but what are we supposed to do with it? i mean, we're all trapped within limitations and insecurities and fears that shape our perspectives we thrash around in our doubts and our lives crash around us as we break our support systems and innocent casualties abound in our wake in one moment we're great then come the mistakes and then comes the panic and clinging and crying and trying to protect our insides and we're dying and even when you quiet your mind and your internal and external stimuli recede and your soul resumes its rightful throne and your life resumes its true nature even then you are not your own but are on your own and the voice that guides you forward that loves you and wants to hold you and take away all the pain insists that you allow for more - more fear, more heartache, more regret because there is only one direction in this life there is only way of seeing it of feeling and tasting and touching it our great peace, our great enlightenment has come before and will come again and its permanence is a fact of life in the meantime we're here to live so be messy, be sloppy, overstep, run and hide scream in anger, laugh in ecstasy, say too much love and lose and love again and lose again love your sins, love your growth and every wound love your lies as much as truth we discovered something huge together a little early and embraced it and collided and allowed it to get dirty and get bloody and get broken because this can take it because this, at least, is what we make it you're never wrong the more you feel the more you trust it the more its getting strong we are infinite GOD, unlimited time, uniform consciousness subliminal mind, immutable spirit, omnipotent grace and we left all of that to come here to this place God is love, and love is what we do but here there's so much to experience too when it hurts you get stronger when its good you relax so it's all good and good for you don't panic am i anything like what you see when you look are you more than a figment of my imagination splintered from expectations and memories and dreams and assigned to an abberation of sight and sound are our feelings just chemicals? are our thoughts more than synapse electrial pulse and organic mishap? are the words that appear in front of me an accident of biology to be subdued and explained stuffed in a box we call realism? am i crazy? we are who scaled mountains and braved cliffs who risked our understanding of everything to face eachother. who defied the constraints of distance and time and logic and reason and finance and physics and transgressions and trespasses of the past and the uncertainty and murky grey of the future we are who crossed oceans and faced fears a voice said 'come home' and we showed up here we are who said dreams are for the waking hours who said realism is for the coward who said wishes are for the timid who said hoping is not the same as knowing and when we took each others hand two universes collided in a third in an explosion of light and sound and energy, and spirit, that sent ripples throughout the cosmos laced with a message a key to unlock what it means to be human and what it means to know God i just missed the picture because the truth is all around us time is a dimension and we live in the middle and special relativity states that simultaneous events may not appear to occur simultaneously each of us represents a fingertip of one great consciousness forever falling in love with itself as we recognize ourselves in the other without the absense of love, love cannot thrive without the absense of hope, we'd never have to decide to survive i see you, and i see you fall to pieces and reassamble and build up the courage to walk again, and then fall again i recognize it in you because i've seen it before i've thought i was caught and then smashed on the floor then i've turned in resentment and burned every bridge just to rebuild them and cross them again its easy to wonder and ask ourselves why we allow all this pain to remain in our lives time dilates and distorts and stretches with gravity and contracts in our hearts time does a lot of things but uniformly and without exception time heals time is medicine for the heartache we feel as it flows over our souls like stones in a river we collide and occasionally decide for ourselves we make heaven out of hell and when i shut the world out and i quiet my mind i see blue eyes and perfect teeth and i feel the warmth in a slight curviture in a spine i feel the comfort of communion and connection of mine i feel multiplied passion and loving embrace and my fears and my doubts and mistrust dissipate and later i lose it and still feel alone but somewhere i know i've always been home when i think about you how i feel when i think about your grace i become a better man in a better place there's a place thats like an island where the sunshines in your face i will be a better man in a better place if i find you with me how i'll feel when our beating hearts remain you will find a better man in a better place